Friday, April 02, 2010
oh bother. crap dammit hell. the heart is torn and i don't particularly understand why the effing hell it keeps flitting around... there is this guy in church and he's adorable. but the sexy hot adorable like mr hatter. sigh. you'd think that someone with a guy would be perfectly fine eh? sometimes i feel like the whole life is being tied down and decided upon before i can .. so anything about it.. so i get dreams about him. he's younger than me, plain adorable and it's just like a little infatuation cos he's just cute hah. then DREAMS come along and screw the effing story and situation up. kissing people in your dreams is not right. espcially when they feel so bloody hell REAL . i wake up and my heart is TWISTEd. i can feelit. the pain. ow. confusion. ow. what the eff.

i rather like this blog. anonymous and all..

it's gonna take a while to calm my beating heart down... do dreams really tell you something your brain cannot accept your heart believes?

damn but it felt so GOOD. damn effing.. EFFING imagination.

soft but passionate.

damn. i need a hug. i miss .. everything..




sometimes i wonder what life would be like.. if thngs turned out differently...

i kind of miss you , you know...




your hugs were always the best.. always.. i'd try to let go butyou wouldn't .. sure know how to make a girl feel loved..


well... only for those few minutes... or whenever we hung out.. anytime other than that you're just MR HEARTBREAKER. sigh.




connor why do you have to be so effing attractive?