Friday, June 19, 2009
igotta say that its been kinda ups and downsbut just 2 days ago i managed to CHANGEIT ALL. i finally TOLD you ddinti? you wanted o meet up, you wanted to see me, youwanted to talk to me. well guesswhat, no THANK YOU. you say bye to me, i reply bye FOREVER. dont EVER wanna see youreffing face agin. and now i dont have to because i was given good advice to stick to my laurels and tell the goddamn truth and tahts what i DID and now i actually feelFREEEEE and i havet in a long time. thebest part is that you now know that it hurts for me when youtalk to me so you aint gona talk to me much now WHICH IS FANTASTIC. youre outta my life and im gonna make that STAY that way muahahhaha...

ive started writing a fake diary which is actually a real dairy with namschanged and written in the third person of my middle name. i thought i had problems with the older person majig, but after thingking about it really thoroughly, ive realsed that i dont wanna be romantically linked with any freaking effing guy on this planet, cos no matter how perfect they seem their flaws.. attack you from behind. had an awesome dream with mr tall dark handsome's face but with a NAME. Phillip. Never thought that it would be that namethat changed much, but i realise it has AND its sleeping beauty's princes name. and i like her. and now i got a man of my own in my own dreams iwth the same name. oddity. LIFE'S LIKE THAT SO SUCK IT IN.




just felt like i had to say that. HAH.