Thursday, April 24, 2008
is it a sign of one's weakness to cry? i figure i'll just say it out here so i don't have to say it in real life cos i find it very... vulnerable to say it... i really do miss you but i can't doanything about it. so i just cry. yay. well done. stupid fool. yes. very stupid fool. i could whack my head against the wall if it didnt hurt so much. the past... few months its hurt like hell int this numbing pain and everytime i have any memmory it clenches around my stomach nd heart like an icy grip that i cant' break freee from. then finally last night i cried. i cried again .. the first time in a long time. i told my self that crying aint gonna make a difference and it didnt. except make my eyes dry. but still. it only made me feel worse. dont rmb when i drifted off to sleep. but its like the pain that grows so much it becomes part of youand eats you up inside. you dont want to let go.. simply cos you cant let go. its unfinished business.hmm

just occured to me. if i died today, i would become a ghost. cos of unfinished business.


muahahha.. ok...

its driving me insane. to the brink of insanity. oh boy..