Friday, April 13, 2007
happy friday the thirteenth. not so happy .. but not so disastrous.. you know someting? i wanna know why every time we seem to talk on the phone, it either ends EXTREMELY happily or EXTREMELY disastrous. sigh... you had to get help to talk to me cos you found me intimidating... and you got out of your cocoon just for me? and you ask me whats wrong and that i dont want to talk to you? but it just honestly seems like to me that youre the one... who doesnt want to talk.. considering you said you prefer to stay in the shadows.. out of the limelight.. so you didnt want to come out of your cocoon.. so you DONT want to be with me.. tahts hte conclusion i draw. forgive me if im wrong.. but yeah.. thats what it sounded like. that you dont WANT to be anywhere near me.. and i AM blonde.. one HUGE attractoing of attention. and you dont like attention.. so why the hell did you fall in love with me? ....ii dont kow... i dont understand it.. but i like it.. but now you dont seem to like it. like you wish i was differnt. the same ole arguemnt all over again..

i just wish stuff wasnt so confusin.g.. its like everytime you come near but someone starts to tease you move away.. physically.. and dont come back.. sigh... and i want you to just stay.. but you dont.. and then you go emo and say that i seem very distant.. when all i wan is you to just be near.. but you never seem to be.. i guess thast how life goes... and i just should be thankful that i got you..

at least..

i think i got you....

i dont know how you feel...


but i want to have you there...
always..

but...
i cant do anything


if


thats not what you want..

ill just...


always...
always....








love you more..... :)