Monday, June 05, 2006
ok this really sucks. i cannot stand it anymore and one day i will blow up if im not at my peak now. everything goes so DAMN smootily u start to wonder if there is a catch.. then u realise there IS a catch.. u get wonderful frends only to realise that these frends are..frends with this one person you will never ever EVER be able to forgive... EVER because of something that happened in your dark past.. very dark. i mean, u were willing to give it a shot but.. like it completely blew when she kinda gave the hint she didnt want anything...like to not patch up.. in a way.. anyways.. u knew her when she did horrible things.. so .. u kinda get the impression that shes gonna do the EXACT same thing now. and u dont LIKE it.. cos shes gona break up the friendship uve got with the 2 frends she made frends with that u knew FIRST mind u.. so now. ah well life really SUCKS
gosh i dont know whether its the feeling of JEALOUSLY or envy or.. just gawd damn possesivenes..
but when i think of it.. i dont care if theyre frends with anyone eles.. its just an issue if theyre frends with THAT PERSON.. yeah.. oh boy. life is so so sooooo screwed....