Saturday, June 10, 2006
men are BEASTS. and they should have stayed in the zoo. you find taht perfect person who is SO like u and yet SO different. when that happens, take my advice and STAY AWAY from that person. you are VERY LIKELY going to have a fight with taht person because altho u may click very well in certain aspects, the clashing interests are VERY strong and override anything else. so STAY AWAY. especially if its a guy who has EXTREMELY stong ideas. bad bad idea. stay AWAY. im mostly saying this to make it sink into my MIND. but its not WORKING.ARGUH. and now im like PISSED. wad the hell. i mean heaven. wad the HEAVEN.

i realise i have these HOT FLASHES. like sudden intense, REALLY INTENSE feelings of hatred for someone. whoever it is. this time, its YOU. bloody bastard. and there is like residual feeligns after that. so i basically stay bloody angry with whoever it is for like, the whole day? yeah. so i wake up today and im PISSED. but like, hey thank god for frends rite?.. residual anger.. haha very funny. and like hell you apologize but there was never anythign there. so wadever that was ruined wasnt actually ruined in teh first place eh? wad the HEAVEN i cant give a damn. if you dont CARE i dont CARE EITHER! so go SCREW urself or wadever and i cant be BOTHERED. really i cant.

so wad do you do if someone is depressed? i have no idea.. it's kind of sad when 2 people are so close and then something happens and the whole thing CRUMBLES and one person is left in the gutter... thinking life is completely worthless. i realy REALLY cannot handle peoples emotions. maybe cos when ever i feel upset i dont tell people. so when they tell ME wad they feel i cant handle it cos i cant handle my own feelings in the first place. does taht make sense? i dont know. i HATE getting close to people and it's worse when people like to rush into a friendship. im like , dude SLOW down. i cant handle it. it takes me FOUR years to make a REALLY good frend, wad on earth makes u think that in 2 months im ur best frend? god only knows..