Monday, June 12, 2006
i have commitment issues man. i really do. i have commitment issues with frends. i really do. i cannot be really good frends with anyone. why? simple. bad experince. they say you learn from your mistakes. i sure did. i cant rrust anyone. i realised a few days ago that i've been very introvert with my feelings my whole life. people never really know how i feel cos i never tell them. cos i dont TRUST them. i cant really trust anyone. never have and never will. so how can you be committed to something when you cant trust ANYONE? exactly, very hard. so thus i have COMMITTMENT issues.

ive gone through 2 traumatic frendships. and they werent pleasant. i now currently have my best bestest of teh bestes frends and that was only after 4 years of struggling.so. like. i wontbe making any really good frends really soon. you might think your close.hell i might even treat you as close. but inside? im pushing you away. unintetionally of course. its called internal struggles.but mayb it is intentional. i dont know. but i really dont mean it.especially if i really care abot you man. hahahahhahahha. ah wells. c'est la vie.