Monday, May 15, 2006
life is really really funny. i know this has been mentioned before but i mean it all teh time. haha. when someone gives u something so unexpected, it makes me feel that it really was fromt eh bottom of their hearts. did i ever tell you that feeling missed is a great GREAT feeling? like melted marshmellows. i mean, its not supposed to feel good. but when u find out from someone that they know this other person happens to miss you, and u happen to miss taht person as well, well, it kinda makes u feel great cos u know someone out there is thinking of you. i mean, i dunno. u noe what i mean? its kinda hard to explain. and this frend of mine was telling me that she was talking to this other person and could tell that he was smiling throught the phone.. when she told him taht i missed him. sigh. ahha. ok. must stop day dreaming. i hate it when things like this happens. i dont know what it is that i hate. but the whateeveritis, i dont like it when it happens.dont question. i have no idea. ahha. ok i hate these funny feelings i get. like im gonna burst if i dont scream for joy. then. of course i cant scream for joy. so what do i do? i bounce up and down in my seat. spastic retarded me.what to do. i hate infatuation things. they never last and there is no POINT in having them in teh first place. so why have it? going through it is tormentous and riddiculous.i took a really long time going home today so taht i could think throught my life of 17years. nothing interesting really happened in my life and its full of lots of one sided heartbreaks. so im wondering why bother? the problem is the fact that i cant seem to AVOID it. its like when u see taht person u want to blow up like a balloon and fly away like on cloud 9. see now thats how they came up with the name for the feeling. haha. oh gosh. faces appear and i think through lots of people but that one image keeps reappearing in my mind, and i cant get u out of my HEAD. its annoying and time consuming but at the same time such a WONDERFUL feeling. its liike sometimes i wish i could bottle up moments and keep them so i can view it over and over again. like tahts gonna happen. hah. ah well. to have a bit of u as a rememberance is enuf. but i still need a photo. and i will get it.:D