Thursday, April 27, 2006
gosh i think god made life to be a rollercoaster ride for everyone in that persons life. it's horribly annoying. and the stupid freaking hormones that each teenager has. why cant life be simple and sweet without having stupid crushes. everytime i make friends with guys.. it always has to go from 'crushing' then to great frend. for some odd reason, i never can just be good frends with them from the BEGINNING. and its worse when u meet this great GREAT person, and, most obviously, fall hard.. HARD for him. really annoying. its the same process over and over and OVER agina. except for a few exceptions.. well sometimes.. but even then.. u simply adore the guy cos hes like a big brother or a really good brother. or something like taht.for me, well, thats only happened, like, what? once? yeah. once. for others, if they dont end up being a great frend, i never did fall for them in the beginning. they're just. frends. good frends. but not GREAT .definition of great? frends u talk with laugh with .. and complain to. oh especially laugh with. i LOVE to laugh.. and so says tickle, i will fall for the class clown. sigh. maybe cos i'm too much of a class clown myself. opposites may attract but birds of a feather stick together. ah the irony of life. life must be a jigsaw puzzle, its the only way to explain why everything is confusing, why i am certain i must have freakin mood swings half the time. its like i need to get over the obstacle of falling before i can be frends without having the nagging feeling of, ooo gosh he's so nice and all that crappified swooning i wish i didnt do but i do.. seriously, all taht is excess stuff we can do without. then again, i noe we'll all have this little empty feeling in our tummys where love must reside. that little spot above our diaphram but below our heart. thats where love stays usually the love of that special person fills it up till it overflows and runs through you like a choochoo train at 500km/h making you feel all hot and warm but fuzzy as well cos at taht speed the choochoo train creates a tingly feeling and sensation.:D gosh its a great feeling. like ur needed and he will always be there when ever you need him no matter what happens. so comfy and snuggy. ahh well, the real qn is always whether that perosn is THE person for you. an annoying question. if only there was thisone person we could always go to and teh preson could give us the answers to whatever we wanted to noe. that would be so useful. but then, we wouldn't have any experiences and then there would be no hidden meaning to life. and . well. life would be horribly boring. ok maybe that wasnt such a good idea.:P i give up. a complete jigsaw puzzle as well as a maths formula that doesnt make sense. yeah. thats life.